#066- Self-Contemplation...

So in the last few weeks I've realized a few things about myself (relationship-wise):

- I really do have the worst timing in the world...

- Apparently, as told by a female friend of mine, I'm more desirable than I previously thought...

- I'm terrible at picking up hints...

- I need to stop chasing after who I think is "the one" and just let her come to me...

Maybe it's because valentine's day just passed but the whole idea of relationships, which I once thought were so complex, has become even more so...

At the same time though it is a bit of an ego-boost to know that I have a bit of an edge and some girls actually find me cute.

Maybe I need to pay more attention...

#065- Regrets...

You know what sucks?
-Losing touch with old friends from your past.

You know what sucks more?
-Losing touch with old friends from your past and then finding out about big events you either missed or are missing out on like weddings, anniversaries, receptions, etc.

High School was never a great time for me. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't terrible either, but when I wasn't in school I spent most of my time in my room. Having over-protective/over-bearing parents, I wasn't allowed to do most of things that most teens in the U.S. would go through. Joining sports teams, going out to parties, date, I didn't even go to my own prom. It wasn't really their fault, this is just what they knew, growing up in India I'm sure they were never exposed to any of that, and if they were then they were very good about keeping it from me.

So now here I am almost 10 years later... and honestly I would be fine right now if it weren't for things like social media. I'm still connected to all these people from high school, and hearing about people getting married and having kids and it makes me sad that I didn't make more of an effort to keep in touch. I hate that I was so sheltered as a teenager. I think that's probably why I resent being in this house still. While I'm grateful for the roof over my head it remind's me too much of high school and just a time in my life I would rather forget.