Today has been a very trying day. My dad just exploded over money issues and how my brother and I should be out of the house and on our own supporting him and mom by now. I'm starting to get stressed out because as each day comes and goes his argument behind this line of thinking grows (or seems to grow) more valid. It's been 7 months since graduation and I've yet to get a full-time position based on my degree and education... I know it's taken some people longer to start their life and that I am still young but every day I feel more and more like a failure and when I'm not applying for jobs or studying for the GRE, I'm watching videos, listening to music, playing games and just focusing on anything else so I don't break down from this trapped feeling I have here. I just want a REAL job so my life can start and I don't have to deal with this pressure from home anymore.
It doesn't help that my brother has just recently fallen into the same boat but what's even worse is that he is just as argumentative and stubborn as my father. Neither one can end an argument without either being right and proving it 50+ times afterward or having to be proven wrong the same # if not more times and (with my brother at least) turning the situation around so that somehow, someway, you end up feeling completely stupid and humiliated for even thinking you could open your mouth to argue a point with him. There's no talking to those two because their stubbornness is tantamount to a brick wall.
My family feels broken...
It doesn't help that my brother has just recently fallen into the same boat but what's even worse is that he is just as argumentative and stubborn as my father. Neither one can end an argument without either being right and proving it 50+ times afterward or having to be proven wrong the same # if not more times and (with my brother at least) turning the situation around so that somehow, someway, you end up feeling completely stupid and humiliated for even thinking you could open your mouth to argue a point with him. There's no talking to those two because their stubbornness is tantamount to a brick wall.
My family feels broken...
I'm sorry to hear that, you know I understand all this too well. Especially with the med school debacle and pressures to figure out whats next asap.
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